If you're happy and you know it...
Sylvia's in and Tabby is out. What a bittersweet results show it was.
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"A friend may well be reckoned the masterpiece of nature." -Ralph Waldo Emerson
My favorite part of a relaxing day is that moment when, while you're doing nothing in particular, a tune suddenly pops up in your head, and you start to sing to it.
It feels comforting, singing/humming to tunes like these, because sometimes it feels like you're expressing something that comes from deep within your heart, something that you're not consciously aware of, be it joy or sadness.
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Sun Tze once wrote of 5 elements key to the art of war, two of which are Heaven (tian) and Earth (di). 'Heaven' refers to the ability to discern signs and seasons, knowing the right time to attack, encamp, or retreat. 'Earth' refers to one's knowledge of measurements, knowing how to measure distances, weights, army size, upkeep requirements, and various other numerically quantifiable elements.
Dota is a good example for illustrating this... Okay no one wants to hear me talk about Dota here... For the sake of my next paragraph, just imagine that I wrote some deep and insightful things about knowing when and where to attack in the game.
Anyway... During these past 9 days, I've been more productive on some days and abominably, abhorrently, intolerably indolent on others. It's made me come to think about decision making. We've got to know what's good for us and what's not, and make decisions based on that. That's all we have to do.
At this point in my life, do I know what's good for me and what's not? If we're talking about people, then I guess I can safely say that I have improved vastly in this regard. I don't follow people as blindly or give the benefit of the doubt as unthinkingly as before.If it's about computer games, I'd once again say I've improved, somewhat. I still get hooked, but there's a stopping point now, and I can prioritize my life properly and not run to games to shelter myself my reality.
But what about life in general? What about the future? I'm... still really clueless. Haha. I don't know how to make good decisions concerning my personal growth. It's easier to spend my time playing or relaxing or meeting friends than it is to sit down and really plot the course of my life. Well, at least I know what makes me really happy now. That's a step. But I'm 22 now. It's become a topic I have to shy away from, especially when talking with people in church.
I'm not entirely displeased with the way I spent this semester (Other than the abysmally arrogant way in which I approached my project work)... I did a lot of the things I always said I would do. I drove, I danced, I wrote, and I think I spent just the right amount of time catching up with friends. I also think that I spent an appropriate amount of time on my studies, though that effort might not be reflected in my final grades (Shit, have to be more focused on projects next semester).
I want to come away from this holiday period, able to tell myself that I've spent it well and that I'm going in the right direction.
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As you get older, it gets easier to perceive confidence or the lack of it. It's easier to look at people and notice if they're feeling confident or uneasy. They're no longer just 'that way' or 'perpetually shy or moody'. It's also easier to detect uneasiness and fear in yourself. Sometimes it amplifies itself the more you think about it. Confidence is a big part of the puzzle of life (granted, the puzzle for a middle-class, overly comfortable slacker in a postindustrial, low-crime, first-world country may be a little different from that of people in less fortunate countries).
Confidence, momentum, and the ability to go with the seasons... It's so important in work, long-distance running, life, and especially fighting games. Especially fighting games. And maybe love, too.
I'm sleepy.
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"A friend may well be reckoned the masterpiece of nature." -Ralph Waldo Emerson
My favorite part of a relaxing day is that moment when, while you're doing nothing in particular, a tune suddenly pops up in your head, and you start to sing to it.
It feels comforting, singing/humming to tunes like these, because sometimes it feels like you're expressing something that comes from deep within your heart, something that you're not consciously aware of, be it joy or sadness.
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Sun Tze once wrote of 5 elements key to the art of war, two of which are Heaven (tian) and Earth (di). 'Heaven' refers to the ability to discern signs and seasons, knowing the right time to attack, encamp, or retreat. 'Earth' refers to one's knowledge of measurements, knowing how to measure distances, weights, army size, upkeep requirements, and various other numerically quantifiable elements.
Dota is a good example for illustrating this... Okay no one wants to hear me talk about Dota here... For the sake of my next paragraph, just imagine that I wrote some deep and insightful things about knowing when and where to attack in the game.
Anyway... During these past 9 days, I've been more productive on some days and abominably, abhorrently, intolerably indolent on others. It's made me come to think about decision making. We've got to know what's good for us and what's not, and make decisions based on that. That's all we have to do.
At this point in my life, do I know what's good for me and what's not? If we're talking about people, then I guess I can safely say that I have improved vastly in this regard. I don't follow people as blindly or give the benefit of the doubt as unthinkingly as before.If it's about computer games, I'd once again say I've improved, somewhat. I still get hooked, but there's a stopping point now, and I can prioritize my life properly and not run to games to shelter myself my reality.
But what about life in general? What about the future? I'm... still really clueless. Haha. I don't know how to make good decisions concerning my personal growth. It's easier to spend my time playing or relaxing or meeting friends than it is to sit down and really plot the course of my life. Well, at least I know what makes me really happy now. That's a step. But I'm 22 now. It's become a topic I have to shy away from, especially when talking with people in church.
I'm not entirely displeased with the way I spent this semester (Other than the abysmally arrogant way in which I approached my project work)... I did a lot of the things I always said I would do. I drove, I danced, I wrote, and I think I spent just the right amount of time catching up with friends. I also think that I spent an appropriate amount of time on my studies, though that effort might not be reflected in my final grades (Shit, have to be more focused on projects next semester).
I want to come away from this holiday period, able to tell myself that I've spent it well and that I'm going in the right direction.
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As you get older, it gets easier to perceive confidence or the lack of it. It's easier to look at people and notice if they're feeling confident or uneasy. They're no longer just 'that way' or 'perpetually shy or moody'. It's also easier to detect uneasiness and fear in yourself. Sometimes it amplifies itself the more you think about it. Confidence is a big part of the puzzle of life (granted, the puzzle for a middle-class, overly comfortable slacker in a postindustrial, low-crime, first-world country may be a little different from that of people in less fortunate countries).
Confidence, momentum, and the ability to go with the seasons... It's so important in work, long-distance running, life, and especially fighting games. Especially fighting games. And maybe love, too.
I'm sleepy.
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