I can't hear a word this song is saying

Today I went to play basketball at the community club opposite Ginza plaza. I'd been feeling pretty ill because I'd skipped all my exercise for the past two weeks, so it felt pretty good to start moving about again.

On the way back from the Community Club, there is a small garden area designed by polytechnic horticulture students which I really enjoy walking by. Its a really beautiful and eye-catching spot and the area around it is always very peaceful.

I walked past it today and somebody called out to me. It was my cousin, Jonathan. He studies horticulture at one of the polytechnics, and in previous conversations I had vaguely mentioned this place to him... As it turns out, he was one of the two people who had designed the place! Haha. I really felt impressed, especially since he's the only cousin I can really stand.

On the bus back, I caught snippets of a conversation that the adjacent passengers were having. They were discussing books that they liked, and it was plain to see that they really had an incredible passion for reading! ... It made me feel envious to see these people discussing and doing these things that they liked so much. It made me feel like a real mess. Ha ha. Though, I do have something that I really want to do, too.

Today I felt impressed by one man's honesty, and subdued by another's dishonesty. Then again, I'm always unhappy with other people than myself. Haha.




... I wish I weren't afraid that the way I feel might scare people away. I wish I could be like those idiots who just say whatever they feel, regardless of whether their words will hurt others or themselves... I wish I were like them, inexplicably unafraid of the way they feel...

GAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.