The High Inquisitor.
First day of school. Joyous reunions. Dozing off in hall. Sumptuous mixed rice. 60 cent bandung. I didn't realize how much I would miss it all.
In moments of weakness, a person can do things and act in ways that make them unrecognizable to you. Psychology talked about 'generativity': The tendency for people to turn their attention towards supporting and sustaining others when they have already gained a strong sense of personal achievement and fulfillment. If an adult is not able to gain this sense of closure and completeness, he will carry on living life for his/her own sake, indulging himself till he can move on.
This theory might describe the difference between parents who support their childrens' growth and parents who live out their lives through their kids. But I guess I'm beginning to go off tangent from what I wanted to say... I guess it's easier to recognize a person's character when they are strong, and to feel disgusted with the side of them that is weak. It's easier to judge that neediness, that self-absorbedness, that spitefulness or that flippancy, rather than to try to understand, though it can all seem so utterly incomprehensible at times. I know how I'd like to be judged, but it's hard to put it in practice when it comes to others.
Jemma's sharing today during cell group made me think... Moses was a man who spoke with God, face to face. He was never described as perfect. Imperfection suited him much more, and yet God used him to lead the Israelites. I don't think he became so close to God by pouring all his efforts into trying to become a better Hebrew or purifying his imperfections, rather he just kept talking with him everyday, and let God move through his imperfect person. Maybe that's all that needed at the end of each day, and I've lost sight of that a little. Recently, it's always been about results, good behavior and good attitude that I can evaluate and observe, but maybe that's not what's most important.
I feel I've finally managed to strike the right balance in terms between wanting to know them better and just focusing on the study. It always so stressful going in when I first started attending. Now I don't think twice as often as I used to. What will be, will be.
Haha. I just remembered Staff Poh and what he used to say about charging up the 'friendship power bar'.
In moments of weakness, a person can do things and act in ways that make them unrecognizable to you. Psychology talked about 'generativity': The tendency for people to turn their attention towards supporting and sustaining others when they have already gained a strong sense of personal achievement and fulfillment. If an adult is not able to gain this sense of closure and completeness, he will carry on living life for his/her own sake, indulging himself till he can move on.
This theory might describe the difference between parents who support their childrens' growth and parents who live out their lives through their kids. But I guess I'm beginning to go off tangent from what I wanted to say... I guess it's easier to recognize a person's character when they are strong, and to feel disgusted with the side of them that is weak. It's easier to judge that neediness, that self-absorbedness, that spitefulness or that flippancy, rather than to try to understand, though it can all seem so utterly incomprehensible at times. I know how I'd like to be judged, but it's hard to put it in practice when it comes to others.
Jemma's sharing today during cell group made me think... Moses was a man who spoke with God, face to face. He was never described as perfect. Imperfection suited him much more, and yet God used him to lead the Israelites. I don't think he became so close to God by pouring all his efforts into trying to become a better Hebrew or purifying his imperfections, rather he just kept talking with him everyday, and let God move through his imperfect person. Maybe that's all that needed at the end of each day, and I've lost sight of that a little. Recently, it's always been about results, good behavior and good attitude that I can evaluate and observe, but maybe that's not what's most important.
I feel I've finally managed to strike the right balance in terms between wanting to know them better and just focusing on the study. It always so stressful going in when I first started attending. Now I don't think twice as often as I used to. What will be, will be.
Haha. I just remembered Staff Poh and what he used to say about charging up the 'friendship power bar'.
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